It sucks knowing that things have changed so much between you and a person and there’s nothing you can say or do to have it back to the way things were.
I really wish I could remember that feeling of waking up and being so excited to see somebody. I miss having somebody to look forward to, knowing that they would somehow turn my bad days into good no matter what they did. Sigh..
Too bad I can’t unknow what I already know, because there are some things that I would honestly rather not know, things that I would be better off with if I had never found out.
I open up way easier than I should sometimes. I like to vent to other people about my feelings and things that bother me, rather than just keeping it all bottled up inside. I guess I just enjoy the reassurance of others. However, it really screws me over when I open up to the wrong people. Be careful, because once they know your weakness, they’re able to use every bit of it against you in the future.
I seriously cannot wait for the day that I get the fuck out of this city. I’m just waiting for the day that I can finally pack my bags & leave this bullshit place behind. Imma be the happiest motherfucker ever when that day comes.