I really wish I could remember that feeling of waking up and being so excited to see somebody. I miss having somebody to look forward to, knowing that they would somehow turn my bad days into good no matter what they did. Sigh..
I open up way easier than I should sometimes. I like to vent to other people about my feelings and things that bother me, rather than just keeping it all bottled up inside. I guess I just enjoy the reassurance of others. However, it really screws me over when I open up to the wrong people. Be careful, because once they know your weakness, they’re able to use every bit of it against you in the future.
I seriously cannot wait for the day that I get the fuck out of this city. I’m just waiting for the day that I can finally pack my bags & leave this bullshit place behind. Imma be the happiest motherfucker ever when that day comes.
..towards everything, and I like it. It’s like I don’t care or worry about anything anymore except me, myself, & I — and that’s exactly how it should be. Too bad I didn’t stick to this mindset earlier. Forget peoples’ judgments about you, who cares what they think? Forget the guy who fucked you over. I’ll find much better. Forget about that friend who said they’d be here “forever.” Friends come and go. Less stress for me and less sad feelings if I’m just doing myself.
Did I really make it that easy to walk right in & out of my life ? But thanks. Thanks for reinforcing the fact that I shouldn’t trust people. You’re just another example to prove why it’s a bad idea to. Next time, I swear I’ll be smarter.
I’m tired. Tired of everything and everyone. All the people in my life constantly dissapoint me. The things that mattered so much to me, no longer matter. There’s nothing to look forward to anymore. I used to care so much about everything, now I barely even give a shit. I’m just so sick of dealing with the same shit everyday. Same faces, same places, same damn routine. I want something new, something different, but it’s always the same. Nothing ever works out, or is even close.